Where I stand . . .
May 9, 2008
I got a lot of weird things running through my head.
None of it is threatening, I swear. I just don’t know how crazy I am, if I am crazy at all. I don’t think I am on the verge of anything big, like some nervous breakdown or running down the street butt-naked swinging my willie around . . . I am just trying to figure out where I stand.
Like, in the category of people who are no threat to society, how crazy am I?
Do I fall more near the charismatic good guy who goes home, grabs a beer, watches the good old American sport of baseball, plays with his dog and then kisses his beautiful girlfriend goodnight just before he falls calmly and easily off to sleep? Or am I closer to the introverted engineer who goes home at night and masturbates to scat porn while wearing girls panties?
I just don’t know. People don’t seem to talk about their dark sides out in the open all that much. Considering I am myself, it is kind of hard to measure myself without being biased by myself. That being said, I think I do a pretty good job of not being biased. Sometimes I think I am a pretty twisted individual and sometimes I think I am normal. . .maybe too normal.
Has this all been said before? I bet. If so, maybe that is a good indication that I am actually normal and not the twisted freak I sometimes think I am.
But anyway, even if I bore everyone to tears and people run from my blog because it is the same old tired shit, it still isn’t so bad. Supposedly, I read, blogging is good for the mental health. I guess it is nice to do some anonymous venting every once in a while.
But don’t worry, it won’t all be boring venting. I am sure there will be plenty of stories about how slammed my table so hard because of the Mets’ historic collapse in 2007 that my hand still hurts a bit today, almost 8 months later. . . or stories about how I enjoy, maybe too much, pulling hair out of my back.
Well, anyway, I don’t expect there to be too much of a direction of this blog, just writing . . . maybe trying to killing some time at work.
Enjoy. . .and just leave a comment even if it is “you suck” so I know somebody has been here.
